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Always thought tat being wise is e last thing i'll be.
i have to admit this - i AM foolish. there was once i used to endeavour being a fool, but now i start to see this area in a totally different light altogether. i may be a fool, but His Wisdom is in me. n i have e greatest Teacher ever. the Holy Spirit!! i may be a fool, but His Wisdom shall guide me to do things tat make me 'seem' wise n smart. i'm still e same old stupid, foolish me, but His wisdom shall take control n just protect me.
why i actually said tis is becos God used His wisdom thru me to solve a problem. wat's e problem?? well, here goes. i realli hated e way a brother looked at me today. as if we din know each other, as if we r enemies. so cold it felt as if e hard cold metal blades of daggers were stabbing me. n it's becos of a stupid misunderstanding. i hate it when brothers turn foe or just cold(hey, it rhymes) towards one another. tat's not e way to go. we are supposed to love one another, not e other way arnd!! n worst thing is, i understand tat it's not anyone's fault(usually i blame myself, but in tis case, it's realli realli no one), n tat it's just e devil using emotions to attack us. grrr... but i knew i had to talk to him n boy i was glad i did.
somehow i just spoke so meaningfully n wisely tat even i was quite taken aback at wat i said. full of wisdom n good judgement. n i know tat TAT IS NOT ME. paiseh, call me pessimistic, but tis's just me - I'M NOT SMART. period. but all e more better, cos it's so much easier to depend on His Wisdom n Favor!! hehehe. so happy. praise God for molding me this way. n pls, it's not warped if u noe my life story. i was onli saved at 20, so if i was real smart or something, i would have been a smart aleck who believes in self righteousness, n might not have come to accept him at 20. praise God He made me this way. heehee.
la la la la la... (drat's, ber is influencing me!! AHHH!!!)
ok, back to testimony. in e end, our relationship(brother brother kind of relationship) was restored, n all was well n clear blue skies again. praise God for being faithful to help me, n tat He loves me enuf to use me.
Love You too, Daddy!!
anywayz, e Wisdom part is definitely growing, cos when i was talking to someone else, His wisdom took over n said some very logical stuff which cleared up a lot of doubts btw us.(my life seems complicated doesn't it?? hahaha)
gosh, just gotta love this wisdom tat God is showing thru me. ME. muahahaha. anyone who tells me He doesn't love me is definitely lying. hehehe. He loves me. ME, ME, ME, ME, ME...ME...ME......................
Shalom pple. :)
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