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How Great You Are!!
How great Your love for me,
which moved me.
How great Your grace for me,
which changed me.
How great Your joy in me,
which moves me.
How great Your peace in me,
which changes me.
How great You are,
who now lives in me.
Unbelievable weekend which has just passed. k, tis is going to be a LLLOOONNNGGG post. so brace urself. i wrote for 1 hour nonstop. :)
Sat - met up with Sean earlier to discuss abt worship leading. and woohoo!! wat an anointed time of sharing n growing in e Word!! i realli see him as my spiritual mentor in this area, and i can't help but think how blessed i am to have him put in my life by Daddy. he's so anointed!! hehe.
the prac was another thing thou. alicia was supposed to be there, but she wasn't feeling well!! but praise God... annie was there to serve on her behalf, which makes me so happy, cos i wanted to serve beside her for e longest time... heehee. oh, back to practice... hahahaha, we crashed so many times!! well, just becos we were all new i guess... me, joan, hogan. but still, e prac went well, thou it went into overtime. went over to suntec n wah... we only have like 15 mins to set up!! but still, even tat was covered by His great love, as we were so blessed to have everything set up within tat alloted time. we even had time to practice a few songs!! so cool.
after tat, during prayer time, daniel told me, "all of Him, n none of me." i hold tat so dear to my heart, thou being e 'macho' guy tat i am... i din show it out. but i realli wanted to go hug him n say thanx. dun think he will appreciate it thou. hahahahaha. thanx angz!! if u r reading this!! :)
n well, sean laid hands on me!! yay!!! i so wanted to ask him to do tat for me... but God took e initiative. hallelujah. He loves me so much!!! muahahahaha.
then service started. it went well actually, except for 2 occasions when i forgot lyrics(drats... gotta work on tat...) n when deacon chin wanted to sing e bridge, but i din signal!!!(communication is e most impt tool in worship leading...) it was realli an awesome time of worship. i satisfied myself mostly... hahahaha, just being in His presence n praising Him. He's so worthy to be praised!! He is!! He is!! so many things i learnt in tat short 20 mins. God is so faithful... n e Holy Spirit is realli our Teacher n our Guide. i din learn all the things like, cutting everyone off when e Spirit says so... when is it tat we must bring e music high... when must we cut down... when is it tat we go into bridge or verse, when we should repeat chorus... gosh... He's so accurate!! to e dot n extremely precise!! tat's our Holy Spirit for you. woohoo.
spent some time with e team later after worship. had lots of fun talking abt childhood fears, hahaha, damn funny... n many many other stuff. n we enjoyed pavaroti!! as in pappa roti, oops. :p we not so classical lah... :p it was realli a blessed time of bonding n fellowship. praise Daddy. n pple sent me msgs saying they were touched my God!! yay!! He's so faithful!! i know it's not me... (crash crash...) but well, He's still so faithful to His pple n to me. He still came down. praise God. hallelujah.
well, this is e most ministering part of all i guess, for e whole service - the post service worship. deacon chose 'i want to sing!!' ah!!! e song tat i know will somehow be sang, n i wanted to choose it so much!! but well, deacon chose it for me. hallelujah. praise Jesus!! heehee. n after tat, it was like a continuous climb. send Your rain was e ultimatum... God's spirit n presence just flooded e place. i saw pple crying n totally lost in worship... at times, I WAS LOST. oops. but grace grace la, still came out at e right times. phew. :p
n i totally understood wat sean meant by 'leading e flow'. i could realli feel e flow of e Spirit, n as he said, it's not 'leading' it in a way, but rather sensing where it was gg n following it. man, it was awesome!! i knew exactly wat e Holy Spirit wanted to do!! it was so clear!! tat was so so so awesome man!! beats benny hinns anytime. eh!! :p
then after tat was some time spent fellowshipping. first with e sat band, then wif CG. n all the time, i was so ministered, by e little things tat they say. thanx angz for the short lesson on minor 5, 7 bla bla bla! thanx so much!! heehee. n oh, u guys totally rock. sat band all the way!! :)
wif CG... well, i felt rather sad actually... thou i tried to keep myself looking perky. tigger mah. cos i know it's e last time e CG will be officially be together. especially for george. i will miss him so much!! in fact i already did n still do... from HM4 when i knew him, till now... it has been an unbelievable road of brotherhood n friendship. he's always so supportive, always ready to listen n to share. his shepherd heart tat i saw is so awesome, which now shows itself in fruits form, now tat he's leading a CG in assistance of cuijing... will miss him so so so much... boohoohoo!!! *brotherly hug!!
n heard charissa n ian n esther sing. these 3 r definitely called. i can sense it in their spirit man. more to be continued on e next segment - sunday!! finally...
Sun - woke up early to serve Him in choir, thou i was realli tired as i din sleep at all during my 3 hours of tossing n turning in bed. hahaha. but still i had e strength. still i had e energy. can't believe it. God is so faithful. i was realli tired during 2nd service, n decided not to serve for tat session, but i so believe it's from God, as i spent time with charissa n ian n esther.
ok, back to these 3. these 3 have their strengths n weaknesses of their own... but yet, all of them r so evidently called into e ministry. i know it!! be it a lack of self confidence(which is great actually, as it's so easy to be led to His ability in us rather than our own... *looking at himself...)
or lack or too much belief in their skills, these 3 r definitely called. no doubts abt it. e anointing tat i saw in them... amazing. n it's so evident in their lives, e love of God, tat i believe will lead them thru not only their serving life, but their own private lives as well. n i so can see tat serving will only bring more blessings n so much more 'zoe life' to their lives. i know it. i dun noe how... but i just know it. woohoo!! so excited for these 3.
then there's ber. dun wanna say too much, as wat is for her is quite personal i guess. but all i can say is she's definitely ready to serve as a backup, n i pray tat God will accelerate her heart n her mind to be ready for a great time in sat band!! woohoo!! heehee. God is very good to her too. :)
3rd service was awesome. no wonder 7 pple got saved. His presence was so flowing in e place. dun noe whether it's an overflow from sat, but somehow i felt different. n pple has been telling me i look or somehow feel different to them... *wat's up?!?! i'm still tigger!! n Daddy spoke so much to me... especially towards e end when pastor talked abt peter rejecting Jesus 3 times, n yet his tongue was chosen to bring 3000 pple to Christ, getting them filled with e Holy Spirit. man, tat's so ME la!!!
a little background n history to myself...i used to curse n swear at God. i hated 'Him' for all 'He' did to my family, to me. we had financial difficulties, my dad was totally changed from a loving man to a man who seemed as thou he din care less for the family... my mum was heartbroken, my sister was sulky, i was seeing n hearing things... i was so caught up with e fact tat God 'condemned' my family tat i went on an all out assault against Him. watever was supposingly 'right' , i would do it wrong. as a counsellor i did all the bad stuff, yet while still maintaining my good image... i lied n cheated, i cursed n swore. watever tat church would say on sundays(i went to catholic church wif my mum to find out wat God has for e congregation for tat week, so tat i can go against it. amazing hor??) i would do exactly e opposite. but yet, Daddy still have faith in me. He brought ppl after ppl who told me abt grace, abt His love... thou i din believe until i met eugene(shifu!!). well, got saved in new crea, n i never looked back. was e first guy who got into choir only being 4 months old in new crea, hahahaha. *i'm truly exceptional. :p
wat amazed me was this. God used me to be a worshipper. He din mind me being a curser n blasphemer. in fact, He used me as a tool to lead others into worship. n as much as pastor's wods were ministering to me, His words touched me e most. "I shall use e fool to confound e wise".
How adequate. a fool. me. i am tat. no arguments against tat. i'm so foolish. so useless. in fact, i see myself as a negative entity in HIs kingdom of kings n queens. yet, He sees me differently. He saw a boy who went against Him 3 years ago, n He said in His mind. yes, this shall be My extravagant worshipper. n i thank Him so much for tat. it's in worship, be it in singing or in e Word(psalms), tat i find myself delivered from all my circumstances. God is so so so so so good.
n sunday nite!!(or should i say monday morning...) from 3am to 5am... an incredible time of truth n Truths being shared n received. hallelujah. a time when i received as much as i gave, n i believe so it is for e other person as well. so blessed are you!! yes, you!! you!! :p kinship vs kingship... grace vs righteousness... hallelujah. Daddy You are the Personification of Good itself!! woohoo!!! cos God is e Only Good. oh, revelation again!! hallelujah!!!
ok, i realli should continue on this, but in view tat i have to be at work in 30 mins time, i shall stop here. just leaving u guys with this verse.
Psalms 126:4-5
4: Turn to freedom our captivity and restore our fortunes, O Lord, as the streams in the South.(the Negab)[are restored by the torrents].
5: They who sow in tears shall reap in joy and singing.
ppl, dun be mistaken by e sowing in 'tears' part. it doesn't mean we must give up till it hurts us(God is not like that!!) but rather, it's talking abt times of sadness. those who are joyful n blessed already, r already in singing n joy!! it's those, who r in tears, this is a guarantee from the Lord, that you shall reap in joy n singing, cos all that's supposed to be given is already given unto You, thru e Son's death n resurrection. n wat good is there if we just be joyful n singing ourselves?? well, e promise is not just tat. look above. God frees our captivity n restore our fortunes!! n it's not a one time thingy... as the streams in the South refers to e Negabs streams. n they are constantly refilled by e torrents that run from the mountain. they r constantly refreshed. they r 'living waters'. hehe. some of u r getting it. those who dun... well, wait for me to share with u lor. *bleah!!!
hahaha. love ya all, belovedsssss. especially you george!!! :)
shalom
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