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after a long period of silence... I AM BACK!!!
muahahaha. i'm back!!! wif more revelations n more of His love to share wif you guys!!! heehee. but tat will be in e next post. heehee, tis one is just... well, my worldly life. wif a little thoughts n sharing at e bottom thou... so u guys should read tis!!
anyway, well, if u guys r wondering, i've been realli busy at work, busy wif One15... but well, in my spare time, i still get to relax a bit wif e vcds(tat my beloved brudder in Christ, dunz burned for me... thanx for e computer too bro!! :P) n tis new, ermmm... actually old... game...
xian jian qi xia zhuan!!!
i played tis game like countless of times before, since secondary school days... so much tat even when i play it again now, i know exactly wat's gg to happen next, wat to do, where to find all e secret stuff... muahahahaha. so fun!!! but tis game is not played for e gameplay itself, unlike FF(final fantasy la...), but rather, e plot. SOOOOOOO touching!!! okok, a short breakdown of e story itself... it is triangle love story tat's full of self-sacrifices n full of bohemian ideologies - of love, freedom n truth. hahahaha. sounds like moulin rouge?? yeah... even e ending is e same... SOOO SAD!! tat's what makes it so memorable i guess... i absolutely love e story... praise God for it's scriptwriter man. hallelujah.
in a way, i find it funny, cos last time i so wanted my life to be like lee xiao yao's... but now, i dun want it at all. how can let my wives suffer?!?! HOW CAN HAVE MORE THAN ONE WIFE?!?!?! cannot cannot. Daddy, dun ever let me be in tat situation... i wun know wat to do!!! hmmm then again... was there anything i ever knew wat to do?? hahahaha. silly me. hahahaha. k, i'm slightly cranky tonight. :p
k... i'm serious now... *breathes in, breathe out... anyway... playing tat game again as a christian made me realise something. in tat story, wat realli attracted me was e love tat was between e characters. e love tat was so strong, tat even when death was in their face, they chose tat love over their lives. they chose to give up even their lives, to still hold on to a belief, tat their death will allow their loved ones to live on, to have a better life... reminds you of Someone?? *grin
i dun know why, in all tat i do, in everything i encounter these days... i begin to see more n more of Him in them. even e casinos, which will be discussed abt in an up n coming post... (there r quite a few posts tonight. heehee.), even on tat, i got a revelation of His love for all of us... haiyoh... He's so good!!! hallelujah.
anyway... there was tis question tat someone asked me - hey, do u want to be a pastor??
my answer?? - HEAVEN YEAH!!!! BRING IT ON!!!!
hahahahaha, but then... no la. i know tat's not my calling. not to save new souls tat is. but all of us, big or small, in little or great measures, will be teachers, or ministers of His gospel. it's just which methods we use n to wat measure tat differ.
k, back to e main point. my question to all of u who r reading this. why do our sights get more focused on Him as e days go by?? why do we go after something tat e world laughs off as stupidity n foolishness n redundant?? why?? why is it tat we want to do things for our loved ones?? cos tat's e way they feel loved. n ppl, He's done things tat's beyond my comprehension. why did He choose to come down as a human when He owned e universe?? why did He choose to die in such a way?? why did He WANT to do it?? cos He's love, n He's so ready to prove it.
why do we get more focused on Him?? cos we r returning everything tat we learnt from e world back, n returning to our childly state - a state of just being loved. n seriously, we know love. from birth, we draw close to our parents, becos they give us e most TLC. n as a child, all we knew was enjoying in tat love - crying when we needed food, n depended on our parents to provide it. we just shited(sorry to those who r eating...) in our little diapers n we know tat they r gg to clear it for us. as we grow a little older, we still cry n fuss n whine n we know tat their hearts will be touched, n we will get e things we want.
but funny thing is, as we 'grow up' a little bit more... we learn abt responsiblity, n we learn abt it from e world's point of view. we learn to take responsibility to do tis n tat for our loved ones...n if we dun, we get e idea tat we dun love them - as e world tells us. hey, why should we try to be who we are not?? cos hey, we want to be like our parents, being loving n caring to others, but come on, we can't do tat being them, cos we are not them!! we may want to be like them, but we will never have e ability to be them. cos in their eyes, we will always be children. k, tis may come a little too thick n overpowering, too fast too furious(no, i'm not talking abt e movie), but seriously pple... who are we to be our parents? try as we can, we can never be them. as tis is e truth, let tis truth sink in. let God be God. dun play His role cos we suck at it. BIG TIME. n tis is wat always happen. we try to be God, we fail, we let Him play His part. then some time later, we try to play His part again, n then, we fail again. n so e cycle goes. but as time goes by, we start to realise e times when everything seems to be gg our way. tat's when we let Him play His part - God, n we, His ppl. so, as time goes by, we start to rest in Him more, n more, n more, n more... hallelujah.
i still suck at looking totally to Him. but i realise tat wif every fall, i climb back faster, cos i realise His helping hand sooner. i realise my Kingsmen Redeemer being there ALL the time. in times when i'm at e sea bed, when i'm in e heavens, when i'm everywhere, everytime. God is no slave of time n space. He created them. they r His slaves. see Him in all His awe, n trust Him, He WILL be ur God.
He is everything. everything tat u see, u hear, u smell, u touch, u feel, u know. he's all tat, n much much more. if u, yes u, can love someone so much, how much more awesome, perfect God?!?!
so much to say... so much to share... more to come pple. in things in regards to Him, it will take a lifetime to talk abt, n listen to. tat's why we have heaven. :)
shalom
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