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grandma.
ah maaaaaaa!! tian tang sui bo?!?! (ah ma!! is heaven beautiful??) *big smile
if my grandma suddenly appears before me, tat's e most likely question tat i would ask. how i know?? cos today, i saw someone who resembles my grandma SOOOOO much.
when i first saw her, i seriously rubbed my eyes n took a good 2nd look. but well, it's not her. if it's her, she will "boy ah... wa eh xim ghua..." *cold wind blows by... hell freezes over... melodramatic music starts playing - think melancholic voilin n piano duet.
but yeah, for e next part of e day, i couldn't stop thinking abt her. i prayed in tongues n thank Daddy for her... but still, she kept staying in my mind. for some reason tat i dun know of. but well, it's quite revelational leh.
1. be nice to ppl all the time, especially ur closed ones, cos u just dun know when they will go to be with the Lord.
yes, we all believe tat we will live up to 120. but those who have frens n family who r not saved?? well, we DO worry, dun we?? well, i still do at times lah, thou i know tat e Lord loves my daddy n mummy more than me... but well, sometimes i still fear. so realli, it's realli e NOW n e PRESENT, tat we use to love our parents n family. cos u never know how someday, they will see Christ thru you. :)
2. e Lord realli is ABLE, CAPABLE, RESPONSIBLE N RELIABLE.
hahahaha, think my secondary school principal will flip when he sees tis, as it's his favourite catch phrase.(maristssss UNITE!!) but back to e main topic... well, why i said so is becos of how my grandma was delivered. it was when my grandma died so suddenly on a friday morning, tat i felt useless n superrrrrr depressed. i was crying n praying so hard(a sign tat christian is not living by His faith but by theirs, cos there's no such thing as pray HARD). no matter where i looked in e bible, it din give me e answers tat i needed. i was losing e battle of faith. i went to e hospice dejected n alone("You live to die... rejected n alone." sorry, i'm a psalmist. :p) anywayz, thou i tot i failed, which in fact, actually i did fail. :p but God did not fail me. as i came to my grandma's death bed, i saw her eyes still open(chinese have a belief tat if e eyes dun close, it means they were still holding on to something in this earth.) but when i touched her hand, miraculously, her eyes closed. it was beyond comprehension. n later, when her body was being moved, i saw a nurse walking to her body, n then smiled, n then touched her gently wif her hands. n then i noticed... there was a rosary in her hands. i walked over n talked to her, n she told me tat she had been telling gospel stories to my grandma, n there was once she remembered seeing my grandma cry n tear when she told her abt e death of Jesus. God is good. i believed wif tat nurse tat day tat my grandma was saved, n tat she was living happily in Heaven. n thus... bringing me back to e God being able, reliable part. when i failed miserably, God was there to pull me out. or in tis case, my grandma out la. heehee. anywayz... He was so faithful to my simple cry, of wanting my entire family to be saved. just a simple request, yet to Him, it means e world.
oh, coming to e world, tis is a slight deviation. anyone heard deaconess lian's message?? *hands up!!! :) well, she mentioned abt john 3:16 remember?? tat God should give His one n only Son to save e world?? well, revelation i got - tat we mean e world to Him. think abt it, n u will know tat it's true. :) yup, we are tat precious. *gives himself a good hug... k, back to main topic....
3. we DO have e power, love n sound mind to forgive n understand others.
i hated my grandma last time. why?? cos if not for her, my mum would never had to leave e navy then to take care of me, n she wun have to be struggling so hard today for e family. i hated her for being such a hypocrite. tat just becos e eldest grandson died, n i was e NEXT eldest grandson, she began doting on me. so 'jia'(fake). but well, after accepting Christ, n knowing He loves me for e wretch tat i was(amazing grace, how sweet e sound... to save a wretch like me... oops. blame it on e fact tat i din hav dinner yet ba. :p), i was able to forgive her n talk to her. n i began loving her in a way tat i din know how. haha. so funny. but realli, becos i chose to forgive n love her, i din regret e days tat i spent wif her, or even e days tat i DIN spent wif her. why?? cos i know tat i prayed for her, n tat i love her from within, n she knows it(which is e most important thing), n tat she felt loved by me... in tat sense, i have no regrets. i do still have regrets tat i din spend more time wif her thou, cos i think i could have ba... if i spent less time talking in msn n stuff... so ya. but well, as He is, so Am I in e world!! yeah!! *stands firm wif superman pose. okok, back to main topic. i just want to end off tis sub point by saying tat if i din forgive n love my grandma, i think till today i would still be in spike. n i still will feel bad whenever i think bad of her(christian mah... cannot... :p). but praise God for timely intervention of emotions. He's ever so faithful. hallelujah. :)
ok!! tat's all!! time to leave office n head to cine... to watch batman!! woohoo!! trisa say got ninjas... yay!! i like!! heehee. k, gotta run... n be loved belovedss... n do spread tat love around. :)
shalom!!
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