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wat an awesome camp...
wat can i say. God din disappoint.
so many things were shared during camp... some of which i will share here. yet, some, which r very very personal... well, too bad!! :p *bleah!!
hahaha, no lah, in season i will share k?? :)
well, abt camp ah?? wat can i say...
from wat pastor had to say, abt BGR, to wat my dearest roomy shared, to wat everybody told me... it was so timely, so adequate. God is good.
n His presence was so strong. n He realli taught me again, not to look to anything else but His truth, His word, His love. not to e circumstances around us tat seems so real. not to e way things appear. things may seem bleak, but in Him, all hope is found n abounds to those who seek Him first.
n seeking Him first is so simply... awesome. cos His love is so so so so so so so awesome.
during e camp, i felt His presence so real, not once, but many times. n it was a presence tat felt as if it could be touched n held... so tangible n coporeal.
i guess tat's wat many ppl think of. is He real?? wat if He isn't?? but how real can He get?? more than tis?? coincidence?? to this vastness?? then why din it happen to me before i was saved?? why not?? will power?? my will power is weaker now than it was last time. i was so resolved to gg against things... (hehe, God lah, mostly. :p) but now... i find myself super useless. everything also must depend on Him. heehee. but in my uselessness is where His awe n power is shown. hallelujah.
n wat pastor preached... abt e fact tat mature MAN will realise tat they need Him. how true, how adept. how can anyone survive without Him!?!?! but then again... there r ppl who try... n try... n try... just like e old me. they will fall, n get up again. bask in e glory of their climbing up, only to fall n strive to climb up again. their goals r to prevent themselves from falling, n then when they fall(which will always happen), their aim shifts to climbing back up.
two words... SO TOUGH!!!!
if God cannot pull u thru it, wat can u do?!?! from e lesson learnt in my dark ages, i have come to know. yes, truly, self efforts r plainly n simply put - STUPID. wat can i do?? like i'm so zhai like tat. if i can do anything, need Him FOR WAT?!?!? i can be God liaoz lor like tat. diaong diaong. so... it better to leave things to Daddy God, who knows exactly wat, when, how n wat to do. hallelujah.
n one more thing i learnt. God will complete e things tat He want to do, in His time. in His season. for me right now, i dun worry, i dun fret, i dun overly-desire. n even tat branches n stems from His goodness n His love for me. indeed, being in His love, things tat seemed impossible to control n reign over, seems small n insignificant. for e fruits of e Spirit, is love peace n joy n SELF CONTROL. heehee. praise His glorious name.
His love for His ppl is one of jealousy. God loves us tat much. tat's why He wun allow anything to overshadow His role in our lives. cos ultimately, He knows tat these desires over these things, if it is greater than our desires for Him, will destroy us. He's a gentleman no doubt, to give grace n grace more abundantly when we do come back to Him, but we must come to e realisation... tat He's realli to be placed above all else. but fear not ppl, when u do shed urselves of e cares of e world, u will find tat He gives u e best tat u need. cos tat's wat He is. a Provider in e best degree. :) to Him, He only knows how to provide e best. anything secondary is totally unthinkable.
well, i'm still growing in tis aspect... cos i totally agree wif wat a lot of ppl r thinking... dropping all desires?!?! tat's so hard!!! hahaha. i can't agree less. it may seem hard at first, but as u drop more n more baggage, e easier it is to find tat He provides u wif more. n it becomes a cycle. u drop more, He provides more. then His 'hasaid' causes u to drop more. n then He provides more... et cetera et cetera. but always remember... His grace is MORE THAN sufficient!! anything else... He will accomplish thru us. e hard part is realli looking to His love completely... n resting in His goodness completely. it's especially hard in tis society which teaches u to strive for survival n struggle for prosperity. tat's so wrong. yet... we r so caught up in tis unending cycle... but know tis, we r dead in e flesh, n alive to e Spirit amen?? by looking to e cross n His love, He will accomplish n complete wat He has called us to be, n in e process, bless us in e ways tat He can. n well, tat's a whole lot of blessing.
woah... so much running thru my head right now... so much love i'm feeling...
shalom belovedsss. :)
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