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taken out of worship leading.
ok, it's official so i guess i can say tis out. well, i'm out of worship leading. :)
in a way, i'm actually glad tis happened. dun wanna be up there on e stage for e wrong reason, n in a way, 'misleading' ppl. hahaha. pun.
seriously speaking, i think i still dun have it in me to be able to lead worship at a congregational level. somehow worship still gets more personal n it doesn't flow e way it should. yeah. i'm learning wif every time i lead, but well, e Lord loves His ppl too much to have me 'experimenting'.
anyway, dun worry, e Lord has dealt wif me, in a soothing n caring n loving way, as always, so dun worry. i'm fine really. He has given me a peace i can't explain really... it's just tat somehow, i know tat everything is gonna be alright. n tat... ya lor. tis is not a step back, but feels like a major step forward. hee.
in recent days, i have been able to read e word more often, n also realli take special time off to be wif Him n Him alone. away from e world... n somehow, e world becomes a better place after being wif Him. dun know if u guys feel tat way... but anyway, ya, it's just so refreshing. to be back in tat Presence tat doesn't seem forbidding... thou we all know e majesty n e awe of it... yet, it's so full of love n tender care tat it just draws me... ok, i'm floating again. hahaha. kk, back to reality... back to reality...
wat's reality?!?! His love is more real!!!
...
anywayz, it's realli powerful... to see God work in my life tis way. n yes, thou it did hurt at first, but well, looking back, i can't say tat i'm not amazed at how favored, loved n appreciated i feel. from n towards e leadership of our church. it was a decision tat was for e congregation n yet for me as well, at e same time. it's like realli e best of both worlds kind of thing, which make u wonder. God realli can do over n beyond, exceeding abundantly. tat awesome shalom peace tat beats anything in e world. tat love tat is so overwhelming it makes me wanna cry. n ohhhhh....... tat realisation of e price paid for me to enjoy it... tat price paid by God's blood, no less, realli makes me feel so grateful n so privileged... n so want to laugh at myself for letting e glory of music n worship n e stupid useless platform go over my head. wahahaha. so funny.
yup!! *breathes out...
one chapter over. e next chapter starts...
a more glorious life in Christ. cos tat's e only way it can go. :)
n tis time, it will be with, for and from Him. n Him alone. Run on, Light.
:)
gosh i just want to start running into it.
:)
shalom
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