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in You
when darkness seems all around me
when things fall apart
when tears can't stop flowing
from the fears that I've got
I'll trust in You... I'll trust in You...
when troubles overwhelm me
and they come in like the flood
when the whole damn world is yearning
for a love that they forgot
I'll trust in You... I'll trust in You...
and I look to You
my Shepherd and Provider
I look to You
for Your love
and I look to You
my Helper in times of need
I look to You
my Jesus... I trust in You
You saved me...
You saved me...
You saved me...
My God...
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just a song i wrote at a time when i was very very low. my 'dark age'. hehe. some will know when is that, but the important thing is not when it was, but rather how good our Abba is.
I was tired and angry. I was feeling betrayed. my soul felt as thou it was reaped apart, I couldn't help but feel useless, worthless, purposeless, hopeless, which all in all, meaning-less(a short attempt at a pun). I couldn't help but cry. yes, I do cry, and I'm proud that I do. at least I know I'm not a robot. *bleah
and you can't blame me. try losing your job(sorta), getting rejected for the 1000th time(k, not that bad), get caught between a quarrel between your parents that somehow seems to be your fault to start with, losing a very good friend(and you dun know whether he's saved) ALL AT THE SAME TIME. woohoo. e most heartbreaking one was actually the rejected one... cos that had other aspects attached to it - like hearing God(those who dun know, read back into e logs. think it's in may). so many doubts, so many questions... "am I hearing You correctly?!?! why don't You love me anymore?!?! how can I be loved when all these things are happening?!?! AM I SAVED in the first place?!?! ARGH!!!"
yada yada yada.
you know, a person can only take so much. so...
i broke.
i ran to a brother who at that time was(and still is) really a pillar to me. thanx abang-zul. :) sean really helped me a lot during that season. he stood by all my whining and crying and sighs and ABC(arguing, bargaining, complaining). thanx bro.
wise counsel is so important in christiandom...
safety is in the counsel of the wise.
praise God I have wonderful brothers and sisters, leaders and pastors whose hearts and ears are in the right place.
praise You.
ok, you must be wondering, what in the world is Anthony trying to get at??
well, WHEN DID I EVER SAY I WAS GETTING AT ANYTHING?!?!
it's just a song and mindless me blogging.
sha la la la la
i'm feeling evil.
*big, sinister grin.
shalom
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